why. why the fuck did i answer the phone. why the fuck am i so pathetic. i fucking melt for her i feel so weak and stupid and pathetic and retareded. i'm one of fucking Jerry's Kids. god i'm so horrible. i hate this. i love her so much despite all the pain. i shouldn't but it's so hard. it's so hard to feel what i should feel, and deny the fact that no matter what i'll love her. and i'll be in love with her. i'm delusional. obviously. god i feel so pathetic. i want to just die and be done with everything.
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